Right -- um, we had to say a prayer to help save the world we were in on Thursday. Te-kun mentioned that saying them again here would bring back our lost memories.
[he raises a shoulder]
...I've known since Friday, but I didn't say the words until today.
...I don't have a good excuse. [because he doesn't!] I was just scared. I remember grieving for him, and everyone trying to help me after he died... But I couldn't remember the happier moments I spent with him.
I didn't know how much happier those memories were. I was just afraid I'd miss him more, if I remembered.
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...Yeah. After what happened today... I said the trigger that would bring my memories of him back.
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The trigger?
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[he raises a shoulder]
...I've known since Friday, but I didn't say the words until today.
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Why the hell wouldn't you say it as soon as you got back?
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...I don't have a good excuse. [because he doesn't!] I was just scared. I remember grieving for him, and everyone trying to help me after he died... But I couldn't remember the happier moments I spent with him.
I didn't know how much happier those memories were. I was just afraid I'd miss him more, if I remembered.
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[Because she's punching it.]
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-- Ow! I know, I know... I was being stupid...
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[SHE'S SO >8I AT HIM RIGHT NOW]
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well, guilty. sad. like this U_U. he buries his head in his hands]
I know... I didn't... [the way he felt so bad after he remembered,] ...I won't forgive myself for hurting him like that.
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[And she...sighs, the exhaustion in her face again.]
Don't let him slip through your fingers.
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[now he's guilty for a different reason...]
Sorry. I came up here to help you let loose some steam, and all I did was upset you.
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[She huffs.]
Sit down and share this and then I won't be upset.
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Itsuki will do just that,]
You know, I'm used to my emotions being yanked around... but that was a lot.
[understatement of the century]
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....Yeah. You could say that again. Like we can't have happiness in this place.
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Do you think those two things were related? ...Mu-kun turning into that, Percy-kun surviving...
[who is he kidding, of course they are]
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[She's letting out a sigh.]
It's about balance, right? So if Percy survived, then Malik had more to take on his shoulders, perhaps.
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Yeah... What causes the imbalance in the first place? The murders?