...When we find his -- him... Will you look at him? [he can barely eke that out without tripping over it,] I'm sorry -- I know you would even if I wasn't asking -- but...
[there is something slightly manic in his eyes, maybe desperate]
I don't trust anyone else. And Mete-chan -- shouldn't have to see him. I...
[a part of him knows that this shouldn't be an issue at all, and yet for some reason he wants to get it off his chest. that he wants jiuqing to examine buzen's body (and assign britt more work) because the idea of having to see it himself is something he absolutely cannot comprehend]
jiuqing pulls her hand out of his, but only so that she can reach up to cup his cheek. her touch is a little hesitant - because even with touch week she's still not used to touching people this casually unless they're her mother - but still gentle, and she meets his eyes, her expression even.]
...I will.
[her voice is very soft.]
Sir Yasusada or Kashuu may want to examine him, and I won't deny them that, but... if they'll allow me to, I'll do it. And if they wish to do it themselves, I'll stay nearby so that I can assist them, or take a closer look if it seems like it will be needed.
[At that -- both Jiuqing's touch and her words -- Itsuki's panic seems to simmer down, the emotions that were threatening to capsize finally settle a bit. grief is so strange and painful, but trust is familiar.
he finds that he really does trust her, ]
...Thank you.
[he'd forgotten about Kashuu and Yasusada -- more evidence on how he tunnels into his own emotions]
I... That means a lot to me.
[it gives him more hope than he's had since waking up to the news,]
You don't need to thank me, Itsuki. I... want to understand what happened to him, too.
[she smiles faintly at him.
she probably should move her hand, now, but she leaves it where it is for the moment.]
...he must have been very important to you.
[that's understandable - he was an easy person to like. jiuqing doesn't trust easily these days, but she'd found herself relying on him as time had gone by. waking up to the loss of him is painful. but remembering that there are other people who care just as much, who will get to the bottom of what happened, no matter what... it helps.]
[the touch is nice, it helps center him. it's soft and warm, he's never thought about the terms 'healer hands' but surely, this situation should apply?]
...Yeah. [his smile is muted, but it's there] I made a promise with him. That I'll see him again, no matter where he goes.
[oh... a sad promise. this makes me even more sus of you. jiuqing, on the other hand, finds her heart giving a small, painful pang - to make a promise like this and then have one of them end up dead is just really, really upsetting.]
Then... you will see him again, somehow. Neither one of you is the type to break a promise, so no matter what happens - you'll see him again. I believe in that.
as he looks down at his hand, she pulls her own hand away from his cheek. he does seem a little more settled now, and he's even said himself that he's ready, so - maybe he doesn't need her to keep doing that?]
You still remember our signal, right? In case we notice anything suspicious?
[she makes the little heart shape with her fingers.]
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...He said that the first time I met him.
[he tries for a smile, it falls flat. the look in his eyes grows a little distant,]
...Jiu-chan. Can I ask you... [he doesn't finish it, he just stays quiet]
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...itsuki's voice trails off, and her brow furrows with concern. she gives his hand a light squeeze.]
...what do you want to ask me, Itsuki?
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...When we find his -- him... Will you look at him? [he can barely eke that out without tripping over it,] I'm sorry -- I know you would even if I wasn't asking -- but...
[there is something slightly manic in his eyes, maybe desperate]
I don't trust anyone else. And Mete-chan -- shouldn't have to see him. I...
[a part of him knows that this shouldn't be an issue at all, and yet for some reason he wants to get it off his chest. that he wants jiuqing to examine buzen's body (and assign britt more work) because the idea of having to see it himself is something he absolutely cannot comprehend]
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jiuqing pulls her hand out of his, but only so that she can reach up to cup his cheek. her touch is a little hesitant - because even with touch week she's still not used to touching people this casually unless they're her mother - but still gentle, and she meets his eyes, her expression even.]
...I will.
[her voice is very soft.]
Sir Yasusada or Kashuu may want to examine him, and I won't deny them that, but... if they'll allow me to, I'll do it. And if they wish to do it themselves, I'll stay nearby so that I can assist them, or take a closer look if it seems like it will be needed.
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he finds that he really does trust her, ]
...Thank you.
[he'd forgotten about Kashuu and Yasusada -- more evidence on how he tunnels into his own emotions]
I... That means a lot to me.
[it gives him more hope than he's had since waking up to the news,]
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[she smiles faintly at him.
she probably should move her hand, now, but she leaves it where it is for the moment.]
...he must have been very important to you.
[that's understandable - he was an easy person to like. jiuqing doesn't trust easily these days, but she'd found herself relying on him as time had gone by. waking up to the loss of him is painful. but remembering that there are other people who care just as much, who will get to the bottom of what happened, no matter what... it helps.]
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...Yeah. [his smile is muted, but it's there] I made a promise with him. That I'll see him again, no matter where he goes.
[(garou voice) like tinkerbell...]
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Then... you will see him again, somehow. Neither one of you is the type to break a promise, so no matter what happens - you'll see him again. I believe in that.
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It feels nice to hear her words. He believes in Buzen too, but having Jiuqing believe in them both... He thinks Buzen would feel soft to hear it,]
...Thanks. There's no way we'll let you down.
[revive the gays, except make it kazuma and ryunosuke
he looks down at his neatly bandaged hand, and smiles.]
I guess I'm finally ready for tomorrow.
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as he looks down at his hand, she pulls her own hand away from his cheek. he does seem a little more settled now, and he's even said himself that he's ready, so - maybe he doesn't need her to keep doing that?]
You still remember our signal, right? In case we notice anything suspicious?
[she makes the little heart shape with her fingers.]
I'll be keeping an eye out, in case you need me.
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It's enough to jolt Itsuki out of his stupor a little, as he blinks at the heart formed in her hands.]
Heh.
[he'd almost forgotten? this took him by surprise? but it's sweet, and it eases a little bit of the chasm inside him. he's grateful for that,]
Right. I'll keep an eye out for you too.
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anyway.
jiuqing manages a small smile up at him.]
Thank you. That's reassuring to hear.