itsuki "a good slut" kagami (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
nightchild) wrote2022-02-14 08:43 pm
nightchild) wrote2022-02-14 08:43 pm
does roxana know of my love for her....
im gonna find a funnier one
im gonna find a funnier one
im gonna find a funnier one
im gonna find a funnier one
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...A cat? Was that what the others found?
[once he's there he'll immediately push supplies aside to make room for a piece of paper and pencil, his pencil strokes are quick and distinct, eventually forming this. He turns the paper around to show her,]
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[ She watches him draw. ]
... That almost gives the same kind of atmosphere as the cat found last week.
[ During trial, she means. ]
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[that gets him to look at it for a second time, hm]
What do you mean?
[are his thoughts still really so scattered? he's trying, but his forte's never been thinking... just focusing on other people and seeing what they might need,]
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[ and i wasn't around oocly to tag the one that showed up midweek, but that one. ]
But don't stress it. I could be overthinking, and you lost someone today.
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Itsuki like 'ah right, the animals...' i take solace in the fact that he's stupid,]
...You say that like I'm the only one. [it's not accusatory or even frustrated, it's just... quiet. ]
I liked S-kun. He's a good guy -- android... And -- Buzen... [he doesn't say anything, he grips the pencil tighter in his hand] ...He's the kind of guy who could cross any distance.
[polite or otherwise]
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It takes a moment, but a small smile forms, soft but wry. ]
He crossed the distance for quite a few. You're not the only one. [ Everyone knows Meteion is going to take this hard. ] Does that mean you shouldn't take the time to grieve, too?
[ She puts a hand over the hand that's gripping the pencil tight. ]
He crossed the distance to you.
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Itsuki looks at her hand over his, and while he's touched so many hands this week -- he's still not prepared at how warm it feels. He thinks on Roxana's words, and he smiles -- a little. There's a warmth and an honesty there that feels like Buzen's.
...He presses a hand over his face,]
-- Sorry. I just need...
[he doesn't know what he needs. but he does know that he's going to cry, because constantly holding your emotions backs means that your ability to process them is bad, his other hand grips Roxana's, because touch week]
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[ She shifts and crosses the distance to him. She is not nearly as warm as Buzen, and she does not open her arms for everyone, but because of this week and because of the news today, it is easier for her to do this.
She wraps her arms around Itsuki. ]
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...I'll do better tomorrow. I promise.
[is he saying that to roxana? to buzen? to 9s? he's not sure, but he means it.]
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We can only find out so much today, so today is for letting it out. Take it easy, Itsuki. We'll figure it out.
[ If they don't, they'll reevaluate then. ]
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he does take comfort in it, and his tears don't last too long -- aside from that initial burst of emotion. he pulls himself back in, piece by piece.]
...Yeah. [...he can't think of what would happen if they didn't. his voice is quiet,] ...Thanks, Roxana.
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[ When his tears dry, she pulls back. ]
You deserve a moment to grieve, too, as much as anyone else that is affected by death. You shouldn't pretend your feelings don't matter.
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still, he squeezes her hand once]
...You're taking your own advice, right?
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Of course. Why wouldn't I?
[ She's known her own fair share of loss and has learned to handle it in her own way. ]
But I'm worried about you, Kiyomitsu, and Yasusada. I hope others are looking after Meteion. I know she and Buzen were especially close, too.
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...You helped me. [he finds that he can be honest again,] That doesn't mean you owe me anything, but... I'd like to help you too.
Even if it's just talking things out, or helping you with something else. I'll be here for you.
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Thank you, Itsuki. I'd like to find out who took lives tomorrow, no matter the cost. I won't blame you, Kiyomitsu, or Yasusada if you all focus on Buzen's murder.
[ She understands. ]
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they open and stay on her a little, considering]
...I won't lie to you and say we won't. [especially itsuki, who already knows himself best. he's not a fair person, as much as he'd like to be] But if we run out of time at the end, and the only thing we have is a lead on S-kun...
[then he'll cooperate, of course.]
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[ She'd prefer it that way. She expects that those three have their biases. It's a very human thing even if the swords aren't human. Hearts move as hearts are wont to - to those they care more about. ]
Don't give up, all right? There will be something.
[ Otherwise, what's the point in a trial? As much as a farce that Roxana thinks it is. ]
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The worst has already happened, in his opinion. He nods.]
...Yeah. There has to be. We'll figure it out -- Buzen and S-kun... And maybe why this place is the way it is.
[maybe the prism is targeting gays, but then who is 9s in love with]