nightchild | does roxana know of my love for her....

[he shrugs, he thinks she's right though?]

I kissed her because I knew she'd react badly. It's not like fear is any better than anger.

[ your self-hate, itsuki.....

She doesn't look too bothered by that. ]

If it works, it works.

[ But if he thinks the kiss caused a fear reaction.... ]

How many times have you had to deal with her in that state?

[don't perceive it...

if it was anyone else asking Itsuki this question, then he'd probably pivot away -- maybe under the guise of trying to protect Marie's privacy... what little she has of it left, but he has good feeling that Roxana's clever enough to put all the pieces together on her own, with or without his help.]

That was my second time, and both of them happened the same way.

Did you say something sweet or kind?

[ That's an interesting trigger. ]

You can probably guess.

[both, it's both]

I haven't done it since. ...But Buu-kun's a genuinely nice guy, so one thing probably lead to... that.

[ i ara read it on the public mingle but Roxana wasn't there.

She guesses he was flirting in his usual way. ]

I have a feeling he'll keep on causing that reaction, but I don't think he'll stop.

[(roxana voice) itsuki u slut]

...Yeah. [for once, he's expressing an emotion that's not his usual. he's worried...] He won't even mean to do it, he'll just want to make her happy.

[...]

What would you want to do, Ana-chan? If you were in her shoes?

[ Roxana does so much for her survival, but she thinks she'd rather be dead than be in Marie's shoes. Even if she hates herself for all the repulsive things she does, at least she makes the conscious choice to be that way.

She doesn't know Marie's full story, but for now, it doesn't seem all conscious. ]

I wouldn't. Of course I wouldn't want to hurt anyone in that way.

Would you keep everyone at a distance then?

[...Maybe looking this upset about it seems hypocritical considering his track record of "distance", but putting up a pretense of dignity seems kind of moot with Roxana]

[ She smiles a little. ]

If it was what was best.

[ Everyone keeps people at a distance for different reasons, herself included. ]

...Yeah.

[sometimes it is the best way, isn't it?]

Don't know if it's really an effective solution here though, what with all these people and no where to run.

You don't need to be far away to keep people away.

[ She almost feels as if Itsuki would know this, too. ]

[As usual, Roxana is not wrong.]

...How would you do it? Just treat everyone the same way?

[itsuki's strategy is to get super close and super annoying, which fails utterly when he comes across people who are okay with that]

That's one way to phrase it. More or less. Polite indifference is effective.

[ If you are cold and unapproachable, it's hard for people to get close. ]

Feels like a less offensive strategy compared to mine.

[which is hit on everyone until they ask you to leave]

[ looks at this timestamp did you even sleep at all yaywon ]

It's more graceful, and I can go where I please.

[ And not get looked at like the next thing out of her mouth is going to be an innuendo. ]

[I DO ARA IM NOW A CHANGED PERSON]

Will it sound weird if I say I support you...?

[SUPPORT EACH OTHER'S EMOTIONAL DISTANCE????]

[ are you..... are you.... ]

No. I will accept all your support.

[ She doesn't see a reason to change how she is. ]

[YES!!!

itsuki like i respect u so much roxana and me like no roxana baby i want u to change...]

You've got it then. [...itsuki realizing that this is a weird conversation to have, maybe] I hope whatever happens doesn't take too much from you, Ana-chan.

[ The only thing that hasn't been taken from her is her life, so we'll :) see :) ]

I won't let it.

does roxana know of my love for her....

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