does roxana know of my love for her....

[nightchild]

im gonna find a funnier one

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[nightchild]

...I think so too.

It's not really something either of us can answer, huh?

[the idea of a good person]

So rather than asking what a good person is... how important do you think it is to be one?

[disingenuous]

[ That's also not a question she thinks has a clean or clear answer. Some people can't afford to be a good person.

Is it important to be a good person? Maybe, maybe not. It's a bit of a choice. It would be so easy to say very, but she doesn't. ]

I think the answer is clear in my actions.

[nightchild]

[he looks at her for a long moment, then tilts his head up to look at the pink sky,]

It is, in all of them.

[that roxana doesn't care to limit herself under such a broad term, that she has no intention of believing that she fits in one definition.]

So would actions matter more than intentions?

[disingenuous]

The ends justify the means.

[ She'll be honest enough about that. The lengths she goes to, the cruelty she performs—even if she hates it, she still does it. ]

[nightchild]

[it's such a simple and clear statement, for something so complicated.]

...We all have to find ways to survive. Some are just lucky enough to find softer means.

[disingenuous]

Some are. I am not one of those.

[ The moment she was born, her luck ran out. She had to create the fate she wanted. ]

[nightchild]

[who would roxana be if she was?

someone different, obviously. someone who wouldn't really be her.]

Yeah. That's another thing that I like about you.

[disingenuous]

[ her previous life, before she got ran over by a car.

Even the Roxana of the book is different than the Roxana that is now even if at the core, perhaps they're not so different. ]

... Like you've said, I've only shown you so much of me.

[nightchild]

We can't know everything there is to know about someone, whether they're willing or not. We just make do with what we get.

[this is true of roxana and so many people here -- clarte, crow, kazu, bubblegum, even buzen to some degree. Itsuki prides himself on seeing people, but he's not so arrogant as to think that he can really see through everyone.]

...I'm not trying to belittle what you've done when I say that. [not when Roxana will always remember] Just that I feel this way... and that's why I want you to survive tomorrow.

[disingenuous]

[ There's a small pause, the barest flicker of surprise, as if she's trying to parse what he says and how it makes her feel, before she shakes her head. ]

... But if it can't be both, you would still choose for whoever is against me tomorrow to survive over me.