[there's a flare of gratitude, then something hesitant.]
...Thanks.
[he looks to the door of the room where Kumon's resting, and then back at Kazu.]
I know I've said I've been doing better, but... I think about Buzen and the others all the time. I don't know if that's me just trying to deny what happened, or if I really believe that they're not dead. Am I holding out for hope? Or refusing to process?
You're right about that. Dreamer's notes have a pretty specific vibe. That one is... really weird.
I can see where you'd get that thought from it, though. Like - "I may no longer exist on that side, but I'm free?" And the prism is different from anything that any of us have ever really seen, so... who knows? Maybe the ones we've lost are somewhere else.
[ the thought gives him a little spark of hope, at least, so he smiles. ]
And I think it's better to hope for them to still be out there somewhere if we have any reason to. Better to hold onto a light like that than to give up, right?
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...Thanks.
[he looks to the door of the room where Kumon's resting, and then back at Kazu.]
I know I've said I've been doing better, but... I think about Buzen and the others all the time. I don't know if that's me just trying to deny what happened, or if I really believe that they're not dead. Am I holding out for hope? Or refusing to process?
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I think it's normal to do that, when we've lost people that we care about. I still think about them, too.
Is there something in particular that makes you think they aren't dead, though?
[ true to his word, he's only curious, not judgmental. ]
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[he shrugs a little, helplessly]
...It's really just a belief. I don't want to see the person I become if I stop believing in that.
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I can see where you'd get that thought from it, though. Like - "I may no longer exist on that side, but I'm free?" And the prism is different from anything that any of us have ever really seen, so... who knows? Maybe the ones we've lost are somewhere else.
[ the thought gives him a little spark of hope, at least, so he smiles. ]
And I think it's better to hope for them to still be out there somewhere if we have any reason to. Better to hold onto a light like that than to give up, right?
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I'll hold onto that no matter what, I think.
[even if evidence proves to the contrary]
Thanks, Kazu-kun. For listening.
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Besides, you should have someone to talk to now and then, too.
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[he's joking but the idea of kazu being forced to listen to itsuki talk about buzen all night is so funny]
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