So you're gonna come preach to me because I don't do it healthily? You think that just because everyone goes through shit that we all have to deal with it the way everyone wants!?
[ Seething, she probably just looks like a cat sticking to a corner in the room. ]
It'd be kind of hypocritical of me to preach at you... [this would be a lot easier of Itsuki could see everyone's dreams and understand their process of grieving,
it says something about him now that he'd prefer that invasive option over having sincere conversations over tea...]
Well, before all this happened -- I was actually kind of jealous of Ryu-kun and Ma-kun? You could tell that they really cared about each other. I thought it must be nice to have a friend like that... Especially when you're stuck here.
But now I realize that it's so much worse for Ma-kun because they are friends. It makes me feel stupid... But a little jealous still, actually.
[ She sees. She remembers. She stores this information to use later so that she can torture people. ]
Damn... it must really suck to be walking around and getting to do stuff. [ She doesn't feel bad... she refuses to feel bad! People should do shit that they hate and feel lonely and unloved! ]
That pathetic piece of me told you already that she's giving a bunch of idiots the okay to kill us -- me. You wanna know why?
They’re dumber than a bag of bricks and wanna go home bad. Plus their only option would probably be goin’ up against something they can’t beat… they’re too weak.
So, yeah, they’d be stupid not to pick the easiest option available.
Think about it: you're in a world where your real body is just lying back and slowly dying. You wanna have to spend the time to learn how to walk again? Wanna come out knowing that two or three years have passed?
[Itsuki's silent, but the look in his eyes isn't ashamed or pitying. It's just a little distant, then]
I always ask them the same question. You know when they're asleep... They're usually caught up in their dreams, but sometimes... I come back and ask them if they've changed their minds. 'Are you ready to wake up?'
Some of them say no. A lot of them say no. But some... Some of them say yes.
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[ Angy... she's gripping onto the vase. ]
So you're gonna come preach to me because I don't do it healthily? You think that just because everyone goes through shit that we all have to deal with it the way everyone wants!?
[ Seething, she probably just looks like a cat sticking to a corner in the room. ]
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It'd be kind of hypocritical of me to preach at you... [this would be a lot easier of Itsuki could see everyone's dreams and understand their process of grieving,
it says something about him now that he'd prefer that invasive option over having sincere conversations over tea...]
It's not like I'm dealing with it any better.
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Yeah?
What's your problem? If you tell me something, I'll let you know more about my shitty life you wanna know all about.
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Well, before all this happened -- I was actually kind of jealous of Ryu-kun and Ma-kun? You could tell that they really cared about each other. I thought it must be nice to have a friend like that... Especially when you're stuck here.
But now I realize that it's so much worse for Ma-kun because they are friends. It makes me feel stupid... But a little jealous still, actually.
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She's also just wishing that was the truth. ]
That ain't enough. Why were you jealous?
'Cause you think that no matter how close you are someone that they won't feel anything when you're gone?
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...I guess? [no] I just admire people who can go for what they want, and who can live in the moment.
That's a little harder for me to do. ...But I do think I'm trying here.
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The World, right? You're basically not gonna have a life outside of that.
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Pretty much. I'll be sent to whichever country needs me, and I'll do whatever they want me to do for the rest of my life.
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Damn... it must really suck to be walking around and getting to do stuff. [ She doesn't feel bad... she refuses to feel bad! People should do shit that they hate and feel lonely and unloved! ]
That pathetic piece of me told you already that she's giving a bunch of idiots the okay to kill us -- me. You wanna know why?
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a second? hello?]
-- She what?
[IM SORRY? THIS IS NEWS TO HIM???]
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[ She leans back, and for a moment her grip is so hard on the vase that she feels like she may just shatter it in her palms. ]
She told 'em to kill her. The second I'm outta here I'm gonna have to deal with them tryin' to destroy the only world I can even live in.
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...Do you think they will?
[even if she asked? these were people who lived with her in that virtual world, right? he can't imagine...]
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So, yeah, they’d be stupid not to pick the easiest option available.
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I think you're right in that most people would pick the easiest option. [...] But killing Marie doesn't seem like it would be one.
I know I wouldn't make that choice, and I just met you.
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Think about it: you're in a world where your real body is just lying back and slowly dying. You wanna have to spend the time to learn how to walk again? Wanna come out knowing that two or three years have passed?
You've known me for a few fucking weeks.
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I always ask them the same question. You know when they're asleep... They're usually caught up in their dreams, but sometimes... I come back and ask them if they've changed their minds. 'Are you ready to wake up?'
Some of them say no. A lot of them say no. But some... Some of them say yes.