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itsuki "a good slut" kagami ([personal profile] nightchild) wrote2022-02-12 10:39 pm
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-04 12:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ yeah that happened but to be fair buzen would leave the room until she had a shirt on at least ]

Mm, yeah. It's my decision, anyway. [ Like that wasn't obvious enough. Wicked's tone isn't full of it's usual malice or poison; gentle, a little languid, but it's still so far away from Marie's kindness. That said, she's kinda glad to see him like this. Not in some weird, sadistic kind of way, though.

But then he speaks, and while her lips part slightly she doesn't know what the hell to say. ]


... I dunno if I'm the person that should be hearin' all that. She told you not to get close 'cause she thought she'd live through this and get back to her friends, and then after that she'd be killed by them. [ She scoffs. ] I didn't give a damn what you did. If you wanted to get close, then fine -- I'm not gonna be the one that'll be hurt? Life's shit and it's finally coming to kick my ass one last time. That's how I saw it.

[ Imagine their nachos magically appearing during this conversation.

She just sinks further into her seat. A slight pause, stuck in thought, a bit of hesitation as she brings a hand up to cough absent-mindedly. ]


... I can't pull her out anymore.
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-04 12:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Probably.

[ She shrugs. ]

At first it was nothing. I'd reach back so far into my head it hurt. Lately it feels like I'm grabbin' onto shards of glass, but still nothing.

[ The entire time she's talking, her gaze never leaves him. The severity of the situation, the weight of it, has been resting on her shoulders for a month now; the desire to break. Wicked received exactly what she wanted -- the sickening part of her -- and that pesky little wall that kept her away had finally fallen.

But now something's missing.

Again.

She's numb.

Again. ]


She might be dead dead.
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-04 01:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Please stop touching your throat she almost wants to choke you. But not in a malicious kind of way but in a deranged, possessive, kind of way.

Anyway -- ]


Maybe.

[ She rests her elbow against the table, retrieving a nacho. She doesn't want to talk about it any more. ]

But wouldn't it suck if she died never knowing what your choice was?

[ YES she's bringing up something from week one. YES this is a test. YES if he doesn't answer she might actually become feral. ]
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-05 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ He really wants her to put her hands around his throat. She’s thinking about it. ]

How much of this is real?

[ She looks at him again. An urge bubbling in the back of her mind, a sudden rage coursing through her veins. ]

Or is it all just bullshit?

You see… you say all this but you still walked away. You don’t want her to die. You don’t want me to disappear — but I’m sure when people came to comfort you you just nodded your head and agreed that I’m just some fucked up girl, right? Whenever anyone brings up refracting over there, my name isn’t brought up. I don’t think it’s a fucking coincidence, either.

[ She throws her chip down to the table, leaning back. Hand balled up into a fist on the table; knuckles growing white. ]

You looked at her with disdain, you cursed her very existence — the person I was meant to be if I had just grown up normally… and you proved to me that no matter what, I am simply not meant to be a person to be loved. That there’s no world where I can live in.

You left me. [ Nails dig into her palms, biting crescents into her skin. Her teeth sink into her bottom lip out of frustration. ]

You fucking left me… And didn’t even think once of calling out my name. At that point I was just nothing.
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-05 08:20 am (UTC)(link)
Ha…

Hahahaha… hahaha. [ Sorry if she snorts a little. This is funny?

Or it should be. She wants it to be. It’s so incredibly predictable that someone would want to be cruel to another person after they had hurt their loved one — at this point she was used to it. Her heart so cold that she could brush off other’s resentment mirthfully. ]


I don’t get it. I don’t get it all.

[ The corners of her eyes are wet with tears, and she finally just unravels her fingers. Body slumped in her chair. ]

Why is it so hard for you to let me die, if you’ll just be like the rest and watch me fall?
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-06 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
That... [ She's about to scoff, but then stop. ]

I can forgive you, cause from the very beginning I've been wanting to hurt myself. Wanting to destroy that pathetic half of me, because I kept telling myself that I've given up on living -- that I'm fine with my friends killing me. Just like her.

Neither of us wanna die.

[ She takes in a breath. ]

You're a selfish bastard. You pushed and pushed and pushed -- and now I'm here thinking that I can possibly fucking live through all the shit going on back home. That there's a chance that... even if I'm not the one who wakes up, she will.

I hate you for it. I love you for it.

[ platonic btw i feel like i need to specify this in meta before you come into my dms screaming crying and throwing up. She shakes her head, shrugging. ]

I don't fucking get it, either, but if you're gonna say all this shit you better expect me to stick around. [ There's no petal swallowing, she's being honest: ] So please don't leave me again, if you really mean all of this.
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-06 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her throat grows tight. She reaches out, gripping onto his hand. ]

... I --

[ She breathes, her voice cracking. ]

I'm scared... I'm scaaaaaared...
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-06 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Stop.

She let's go of his hand, flinching away like she's been burned.

And then stands up to walk over to his side of the booth and sit next to him. She's not even going to hesitate to curl up against him -- sorry Buzen -- and just finishing crying in his shoulder.

Weh. ]
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-06 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
[ She's already wiped her snot on his shirt. I'm sorry.

But she'll still take the hankie. Sniffle. ]


... So when are you gonna tell me more about you? You basically know my whole life and got me to say the l-word.
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-06 03:21 am (UTC)(link)
[ i grab itsuki and become such a hard stan that i donate to his fansites

But she's quiet when he tells his story; his life, his sadness, and the fact that he said too. When she notices the way he looks at his hands, she gingerly places a hand on top of his.

She's here. Just like he is for her. ]


... I'm really not the best at comforting people. Sorry. [ Marie does a better job at doing that. ] But you were a kid too, right? All those emotions basically go haywire, and you were left to figure something as important as saving someone's life all on your own...

I wouldn't compare you to that guy, though.
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[personal profile] classmate 2022-04-06 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ haha memshare ]

Handing it off to you… it probably meant that she wanted you to give her a nice dream, right? [ She pauses, flinching. ] Sorry. I dunno. [ That probably makes it sound worse that he left AAAAAAAAH. ]

Living in your dreams isn’t always the best though. I… I can’t face reality, but I know Marie can. But that’s somethin’ else entirely.

[ FUCK Redo me and all my homies hate Bluffman. ]

I’m sure your sister is still lookin’ out for you. Somewhere. And she’s healthy, just waiting for the day you guys reunite — and then she can show you where her soul has gone to rest easy.

So don’t be so hard on yourself.