[Itsuki wonders if he should pretend that he hadn't seen that, but well... he'll offer her his handkerchief. a clean one, without any gum in it.]
Yeah. I think he took pity on me the fifth time I went up to the rooftop. [he smiles a little, but his gaze are sad] Mete-chan said she'll try to find him later, so... He definitely won't be alone.
[itsuki and meteion can probably be a better support for him right now. jiuqing picks up her phone, which had been sitting in her lap, and puts it into her bag.]
I was a little worried, since he wasn't responding... but as long as he's not alone, that's fine.
[it's so complicated - someone she cares about killed someone else she cares about, and not because he wanted to, but because he was under the influence of something wildly outside of his control.
she doesn't even know where to begin trying to put that feeling into words, and she appreciates that he's not going to make her try to explain it.]
To be honest, I... wasn't planning to tell anyone where I was. [her plan had been to just respond to text messages enough that people would leave her alone, thinking that she was fine. looking back at her texts, that plan was doomed to fail from the start.] But you asked, and I... you're here. I'm grateful to you for that.
[he thinks su jiuqing is so very strong, and so very warm. someone who puts others first, at all times. she's not as detrimental to her health as some people, but...
someone can only be that strong for so long. and for jiuqing, who's had to live another lifetime of keeping her secrets close to her chest... how much more difficult is it for her to open up?]
You were there for me. You've always been, actually. [he's smiling a little] At this point, it feels a little weird not to be spending time with you.
[it can be extremely difficult for her to open up.
even in daxing, where she has found people to rely on - there's still things she's never told anyone. her mother, her close friends, even general lin... none of them know about the life she lived before. and though she'll let them help her with some things, there are other matters she's always preferred to handle on her own.
letting people in here is harder. but in some ways, it's easier, too, because none of them is as close to any of the situations that have left her with baggage in her own world.
they're all a little too close to the current situation - the way they're stuck here, the way they can't seem to escape the cycles of violence... but...]
...it feels a little weird when I don't see you around, too.
[...it's true.
people are resilient. it's been a month since they arrived here, and she's gotten very used to itsuki's company.
(if he ever leaves, too - if something happens to him...
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even if it makes Itsuki sad. but can he really blame her? he'll open the door to the stairwell and tentatively make his way up,]
And here I thought Vax-kun found the best hiding place. [hey girl, how are we doing]
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when she hears the door open, she hurriedly wipes at her eyes before looking up at him.]
...you were able to find him? ...it's good he won't be alone.
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Yeah. I think he took pity on me the fifth time I went up to the rooftop. [he smiles a little, but his gaze are sad] Mete-chan said she'll try to find him later, so... He definitely won't be alone.
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[itsuki and meteion can probably be a better support for him right now. jiuqing picks up her phone, which had been sitting in her lap, and puts it into her bag.]
I was a little worried, since he wasn't responding... but as long as he's not alone, that's fine.
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[he looks around the stairwell]
...I won't ask if you're okay, or make you talk about your feelings. I just want you to know that I'm here.
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[it's so complicated - someone she cares about killed someone else she cares about, and not because he wanted to, but because he was under the influence of something wildly outside of his control.
she doesn't even know where to begin trying to put that feeling into words, and she appreciates that he's not going to make her try to explain it.]
To be honest, I... wasn't planning to tell anyone where I was. [her plan had been to just respond to text messages enough that people would leave her alone, thinking that she was fine. looking back at her texts, that plan was doomed to fail from the start.] But you asked, and I... you're here. I'm grateful to you for that.
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someone can only be that strong for so long. and for jiuqing, who's had to live another lifetime of keeping her secrets close to her chest... how much more difficult is it for her to open up?]
You were there for me. You've always been, actually. [he's smiling a little] At this point, it feels a little weird not to be spending time with you.
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even in daxing, where she has found people to rely on - there's still things she's never told anyone. her mother, her close friends, even general lin... none of them know about the life she lived before. and though she'll let them help her with some things, there are other matters she's always preferred to handle on her own.
letting people in here is harder. but in some ways, it's easier, too, because none of them is as close to any of the situations that have left her with baggage in her own world.
they're all a little too close to the current situation - the way they're stuck here, the way they can't seem to escape the cycles of violence... but...]
...it feels a little weird when I don't see you around, too.
[...it's true.
people are resilient. it's been a month since they arrived here, and she's gotten very used to itsuki's company.
(if he ever leaves, too - if something happens to him...
...
no. she can't think about that right now.)]
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Itsuki's smile grows a little wider, fonder, as he turns her gaze from her and down the stairwell.]
I won't make any promises, but... I have a good feeling that I'll stick around. Call it a sixth sense.
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...well, we have the same sixth sense, then. Because I'm not going anywhere.