[It's a subject everyone's been avoiding -- maybe rightly so, considering the last 48 hours, but Itsuki doesn't mind that Roxana asks. It hurts, but it's a good hurt. It keeps reminding him that he's alive -- and gives him a chance to remember Buzen.]

...I thought I was safe with him.

[he leans in a little so that his shoulder touches Roxana's,]

He's kind and well-meaning, enthusiastic. And if he knew about things like love and affection -- they had a different meaning to him. The things he did weren't the same as when I did them... So I thought -- well, if they're not the same, then they don't have to have the same meaning.

[a terrible reason that just boils down to itsuki thinking that no matter what he did, buzen wouldn't realize that it's love or affection, so that would make Itsuki safe to like him.]

...That's what I really thought at first.