[ Danny doesn't look too convinced by this. He is, after all, the guy who literally said "it may not be my problem, but it is my responsibility." So like. doubt.jpg. ]
[this tracks with the kind of person Itsuki knows -- a danny who's very responsible, and will save others.
it makes it easier to differentiate him from the danny of Thursday night,]
It is pretty messed up. [he'll be honest about that] But... I'd like to know what you were thinking that night, if that's okay. I heard that refracting changes you -- but it doesn't suddenly turn you into a psychopath or something. So I doubt that you used a gumball on me to be extra mean about it. You had something in mind, right?
I picked you because I knew...a lot of the people you really cared about were really dead. And I thought--at the time, I thought that dying wasn't really a big deal, it didn't really matter, especially if you got to hang out with everyone you cared about after.
And then I...decided to do it that way cuz I figured it'd be quickest. And easiest. No fighting, nothing drawn out. Neither of us would have to really get hurt. I heard that slitting the throat was supposed to be one of the quickest ways to die, so...[ shrugs ] ...there you go.
[Itsuki listens to Danny's explanation, and the tide of anger that rushes through him is not for him -- no.
It's for this place, that can paint even the worst actions in the light of someone who wants to save. He presses a hand to his mouth and coughs, the flower falling into his hand.]
I know you said it's not very nice, but... you were trying to be kind to me.
[He looks hesitant for a moment, before reaching out to put his hand on Danny's shoulder. tentative, and slow enough for Danny to back away if he wants to.]
...I heard what happened after. No matter what happened to me -- you've had a pretty rough time too.
[he doesn't say anything for a moment, deep in thought.
he knows what he would do. he'd never talk about it again, or accept it as a part of himself that can never be changed. for danny?]
I think you should do what you're already going to do. Talk to Kumon-kun. Listen to what he says. Hear out what anyone else wants to say... But don't let their words tie you down.
After that... I don't know. Does hurting me mean you can't live your life? That you can't keep saving people...? I'm a pretty selfish guy, but I like to think that I'm not that self-absorbed.
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Hey, nightmares are pretty powerful, you know? [...] Getting caught in your own thoughts... I wouldn't wish that on anyone.
Well, aside from trying to do that to you right now.
[he doesn't think he really would have. he'd probably have given danny a nice, calming dream. somewhere where he can see kumon again.]
...Danny. I won't tell you how you should feel. But I want you to at least know that I don't hate you, or blame you.
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...I don't get it.
Why not?
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[he shrugs]
We both know that people get refracted. What the prism did to you -- to us... That's not your responsibility to bear.
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I still--I didn't have to do that to you.
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it makes it easier to differentiate him from the danny of Thursday night,]
It is pretty messed up. [he'll be honest about that] But... I'd like to know what you were thinking that night, if that's okay. I heard that refracting changes you -- but it doesn't suddenly turn you into a psychopath or something. So I doubt that you used a gumball on me to be extra mean about it. You had something in mind, right?
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Are...you sure? It's not very nice...
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[CAN IT?]
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I picked you because I knew...a lot of the people you really cared about were really dead. And I thought--at the time, I thought that dying wasn't really a big deal, it didn't really matter, especially if you got to hang out with everyone you cared about after.
And then I...decided to do it that way cuz I figured it'd be quickest. And easiest. No fighting, nothing drawn out. Neither of us would have to really get hurt. I heard that slitting the throat was supposed to be one of the quickest ways to die, so...[ shrugs ] ...there you go.
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It's for this place, that can paint even the worst actions in the light of someone who wants to save. He presses a hand to his mouth and coughs, the flower falling into his hand.]
I know you said it's not very nice, but... you were trying to be kind to me.
...Thanks for telling me, Danny.
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...sorry.
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...I heard what happened after. No matter what happened to me -- you've had a pretty rough time too.
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Like I said before, I won't tell you how to think. But I do hope that you know that I meant what I said -- that I don't blame you.
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...okay.
Hey, Itsuki...what do you think I should do next? Y'know, now that I'm...a murderer, I guess.
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he knows what he would do. he'd never talk about it again, or accept it as a part of himself that can never be changed. for danny?]
I think you should do what you're already going to do. Talk to Kumon-kun. Listen to what he says. Hear out what anyone else wants to say... But don't let their words tie you down.
After that... I don't know. Does hurting me mean you can't live your life? That you can't keep saving people...? I'm a pretty selfish guy, but I like to think that I'm not that self-absorbed.
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[simply, then]
Why? What do you think you should do? No -- what do you want to do?
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What do I want to do? Honestly, crawl into a hole for the rest of my life where I can't hurt anyone ever again.
What should I do? [ sighs ] I don't know, but not that.